Ombudsman Writings - February 2020
By Rev. Randy Fillmore
I have to wonder at times if I'm the only one. With my decades of training and experience steeped and ruled in procedures, processes, and regulations, I automatically think and react to life from and in an analytic frame of reference or perspective.
Growing up with the teachings of Unity, my time with ADL and other spiritual teachings opened a completely different world than my vocation.
To some, it might seem schizophrenic, though I prefer to compartmentalize those aspects of my life; something I learned during my work supporting the US intelligence agencies.
As I look back on this past year, I enjoyed some great personal moments and endured heartache. As I moved through these moments of mountain tops and deep valleys, it was necessary for me to engage in some form of decision process. One option always was to do nothing and sit for a while, while generally action was needed, in some form or another.
In retrospect I have noticed the decisions I have made have been driven by my head OR my heart. What does my analysis of this situation dictate my action to be? What is in my best interest, or the best interest of others? How will a decision make me feel? What makes my heart sing? What is the best thing for my well-being?
What I have started to learn (doesn't happen all the time - it IS a learning process) is that IF I can define the line between head and heart, or heart and head, AND be aware of that very thin line between those two realms, I can change that from a "line" into more of a "zone"; not strictly head, not strictly heart, but the true nature of my being. It is from that zone that I now tend to seek direction and guidance before making decisions.
I appreciate hearing about musicians, artists, athletes, and others who talk about being "in the zone", where they just exist, and are able to tune out the physical sensations of their surroundings and can intently focus on their task.
I seek to engage more of living life in the zone instead of bouncing between and across that thin line between head and heart. I affirm you will join me in that journey.
Blessings along your path,
Rev. Randy Fillmore